I wanna go home

summer seems too far away. but im remmebering the fall when i coulnt wait for this summer to come- mostly so i could go to europe.. ive had my pre trip meeting and im really excited but nervous about the other students going.. im afriad that all they will do in the down time is go out and party and drink like crazy, and i dont want to see that part of europe, id rather get up early the next morning and get in line to see the effel tower or see the tower of london.. or something! not drink and meet strangers.. anyhow..
im even more nervous about my application to junior status as an interior design major- i wont find out until right before i leave for europe, and i cant see myself enjoying myself there if i know i didnt get into my major without a back up plan.. and i dont have one, because that was my backup already- im already 3 years into this whole college thing with 2 more planned for interior design, and i dont thing i could change majors again.. i just need some security that God will hold this decision in his hands and make sure that i get in.. but i know i wont get any proof..
im just so nervous about everything going on around me.. also it looks like im skipping my period this month :-\ i was supposed to get it around the first week of april and here it is 3 weeks later and nothing. probably stress? it seems like it effects me more than other people. I can feel stress, physically in the form of tense muscles in my shoulders and neck.. and its just hurts! and theres nothing that will make it go away until whatever im worried about passes or is resolved, then it ebbs away.

well i guess thats enough for now..
but heres a fun list of this that i have to face in the near future
project 3
final paper gsah230
exam bs111
exam ec201
2 assignements for CAD
moving out
completing oncampus portion of study abroad trip
packing for study abroad
beth's shower
finding out about interior design
going to europe
beth's bachlorette party
beth's wedding
moving into house next year
finding money to pay for school (from u.c.)
maybe buying a moped?
survuving the next 2 years of school....

and scene.