wisdom from uncle carl

well i went over to my uncle's house just to hang out and talk like we usually did when he had time to do stuff when he came home.. but it seems like since hes moved in across the street less than 5 yrs ago, we havnt said barely 10 words to each other..

but thankfully he hasnt lost faith in me, and i am so grateful for that.

"dont expect too much from yourself" basically if you think something is going to take 2 hours to complete- give yourself 4 or 6. knowing that it will never actually take only 2 hours, but also not knowing what the heck would occupy the other 2-4 hours alotted, but that doesnt matter- because having that cushion makes you more relaxed and safe.
this also applies to money matters- in not wanting. period. well yes you can want, but want when its well within your means. example: you want something- costs $10 but you only have 50 in your bank account. it wouldnt be the best idea to buy it at that time.. but- if you had $1000 (to be safe) in your account- then it would be ok to buy that $10 thing- but that is not how the mind works idealy does it? when we have that $1000, we no longer want the $10 thing because now we could potentially buy something worth up to $1000! but if we master the skill of only wanting within 10% of what we have available- the other 90% serves as a cushion and safety net that protects us. and that is nearly the secret to financial and concurrently physiological and psychological rest and peace.
dont worry about what is happening now too much- try to remove yourself from your life and thought and rise above by 50 years and think about how you would make that decision being 70 years old- after having lived a long and happy life- how would you make decisions you are making right now?

hmm well thats about how much i care to put into writing but I hope i have the pleasure of hearing it over and over again as uncle carl and i return to our once close relationship.

:)

sleep problems

so every night i go to bed,  not really tired, but know i need to sleep- and then wake up 2 hours before i need to wake up.. no matter what time i go to bed, i always wake up 2 hours before i wake up.. i dont get it.. some thing must be making me up.. and i wake up completely awake, but when i try to go back to sleep and let my alarm wake me up again- i wake really tired and out of sorts..
:(
hopefully spring break will help with this..
along with the rash on my arm..

Im just to far, from where you are, i wanna go home.
Let me go home......ive had my run, baby im done, just let me come home..
I miss you, ya know..